I’m not sure if its lack of motivation or lack of inspiration, but whatever it is I haven’t been remotely creative in what feels like forever. In a couple days my mind is going to be preoccupied with other things and it can go either one of 2 ways: I’ll either be a shut in for a week or so and keep going in this downward spiral of non-creativity, or I will be so moved from it that I’ll be forced to pick myself up with some fresh work. I’m really hoping for the second option. I want to find the beauty in life but it feels like things are just monotone right now. Its a huge mental block that I haven’t had to face in a while, I don’t like it.
I’m going to try to snap out of it this coming week, payday is tomorrow and I have saturday off which means I’m going to one of three places depending on weather: Berkeley, Miur Woods, or Bodega. Wednesday I plan on getting my little depressed booty into the lab to try and snap out of whatever funk I’ve been in. Lets hope for the sake of my own sanity, it friggin works.